I won't bother you with any long stories or anything so just to cut to the chase, I had to spend pretty much all summer making up work for a class last semester, and even though I have gotten said work done, the summer is pretty much almost over at this point anyway. I wanted to work on some of my own personal projects during the summer, but it's too late now to actually dedicate any time for said projects anyway (animation takes time).

Me and my mom also had to start working on getting a new kitchen installed for our Italy home, which was very physically intensive. And the worst part is, we had to leave said kitchen unfinished because my uncle was hospitalized for sepsis. So not only did we have to rush ourselves to get done what we were able to get done, but we also had to cut our summer vacation short by a couple weeks, which really sucks.

I am starting to feel a little better about it now, but it still sucks that it happened regardless. I hope you all had a better summer than I've been having.

I do not allow anyone to use my art or covers in any of their works without express permission from me, and I plan to keep it this way for now. I have had past instances of people reusing my content without giving me credit or even giving me knowledge about it in the first place, so I have become a bit paranoid of that happening again. I wish to minimize content theft as much as possible even if my art may not seem worthy of being stolen.

I'm sorry, but that's just how it is.

I'm going to be honest, despite how passionate I tend to be with my art and my creations, deep down, I really just do not like myself. I have gone through one-fifth of my life feeling like an inadequate and mentally unstable person, feeling like my creations will not impact a single person in the world regardless of what they say. And right now is one of those times where I feel that feeling especially.

My biggest fear is to be forgotten about, to feel like nothing of what I'm doing is making any sort of impact at all in the world, like nothing that I do at all matters in the grand scheme of things. But at the same time, I feel like I am not someone who is worth being remembered, that I will always just be a nobody with big ambitions but little to no motivation to fulfill them, dreams too big to reach built off of broken promises and unstable mental health. I know that sounds dramatic, but that's just how I feel right now.

I know I can improve over time, but seeing that lack of improvement within myself makes me not be able to help but feel this overwhelming sense of self-loathing. My motivation being as wonky as it is, due to having ADHD, is not helping matters much either. I just wish I was able to not let the stress and unfortunate circumstances around me bog me down as much as they really do, but I wouldn't be making this post in the first place if they didn't...

I now will finally start using this Newgrounds account. I made it a couple years ago, but I finally decided to dust it off and make it presentable. I mainly was posting my art on Bluesky, but I'm also gonna be posting on here at the same time to gain more traction.

If you wanna follow my Bluesky as well, the link to it is in my Newgrounds bio.